Lucky

Let's face it. Nothing comes easy in life. Indeed, it is the painstaking efforts, the sacrifices, the blood, sweat and tears shed which allowed one to truly appreciate his/her own success.

But how do you explain those people who were just born lucky, talented, rich and famous without a worry in the world? (or so it seemed?) What about people who are just plain geniuses and so intelligent that they need not work half as hard, compared to others who simply had no choice but to put in the extra hours? What is it also about the mambo jambos going around about “visualising” and “believing” in your dreams and that eventually those would come “rolling” to you and the universe would somehow work its way to help you achieve what you want?

I have always believed that those are partly true. By believing in your heart that you are capable and worthy of something, eventually your actions would reflect your goals and whatever you do would be in pursuit of them, be it a new a car, a job promotion, having a loving, happy family, losing weight, a new house or even that outrageously expensive handbag you’ve had your eyes on. There is no such thing as sitting around, waiting for it to come true. It takes work, determination and one’s willingness to endure possible disappointments- sometimes, success may not make its first visit. I’ve discovered that one can have it all, sooner or later. It may not be as perfectly as pictured, but it can be nearly as wonderful.

You are in fact what you believe you are. And "Luck" might not be it at all.

About to be Charmed

Were you ever in a situation where no else existed, nothing else mattered and all you want to do is spend your very existence with a special someone? First thing that came to mind, is a vacation getaway (with just me and Mr Fiance) exploring the beach, swimming, snorkeling, feeding each other mangos and drinking coconut. Guess what? That’ll be a reality in a mere 5 months!

After working our a**es off for the past 4 years, it has been a while since I had a great relaxing vacation! I’m so looking forward to it!

All thanks to Mr Fiance and his genius idea, we won the Honeymoon package @ Midvalley Wedding Fair. Kamandalu Resort is about to become our Honeymoon destination! It’s one of those things I look forward to (besides the wedding, of course) which keeps me going and alive at work!
*jumping up and down* I’m so psyched!!

Material Girl, Material World

Some say that a dream wedding would probably eat up most of your savings. Weddings are even considered to be a multi million ringgit industry in Malaysia (yea, i actually looked that up). Since mr fiance dearest and I had came up with the so-called wedding budget about a month ago, I couldnt help but wonder, would spending most (if not all) of my money be worth it? People who know me well would realise that despite my small pay I do have an unhealthy splurging appetite on branded goods (walaupun tak mampu!)


(yea this pic is rather tiny)

I, for one had my eyes set on my dream dais by dicky d fabulous, and let me tell you, his price range is 'fabulous' indeed. A basic pelamin in a ballroom is a mind staggering RM 10k, not including aisle deco or even the arch! *chokes*

So what now? Logic would dictate that one (with mediocre pay and insufficient savings) should opt for a close duplicate. Aaah, but the trick is finding a wedding decorator who is willing to do so for half the price ;) So I'm currently scouting for one fast and currently having a few options in mind.

And yes, a colleague had even suggested that I take a peek at the oh-so famous lynda rahim butik in ampang. Rental of a wedding dress + groom's suit alone costs RM4k. Unfortunately,I had already fell in love with lynda rahim's fantastic lace beaded dress with flowing veil and train (yes, it was also featured in a magazine)

Perhaps it isn't such a great idea to waltz around famous couture designer boutiques anymore and stop pretending that I could actually afford those :(




Heck, call me shallow all you want. At least cheap ordinary stuff sometimes do look pretty pricey under dim lightings, right? *Sighs*

The Day I Got Engaged

It's official! Yes, people, I am now engaged to mr fiance m adli m hassan ;)wink. (ALHAMDULILLAH!)It was a beautiful ceremony indeed, and I was soo lucky to have fantastic family and friends who were there to help. Love you guys (Muahss*)I even had 3 photographer frens taking pics! How great is that?

Here are some of the pics that I love. I must tell you they're my fav so far- I find these fabulously artsy!











Well I've been getting a lot of compliments about my hantaran. (I luuurve my chanel cake)and edd even did his pink hantaran himself, with the help of his mum, of course :P though the whole event was simple, it was a happy one, couldnt even stop myself from grinning till now.







With that done, I guess there's no harm to finally be on full bridezilla mode :P

Daddy's Little Girl?

I couldn't recall a time when I was younger when life wasn't revolved around fear. Dad was angry all the time, and though there were happy times at home, even at the earliest age of 5 I knew any form happiness couldn't possibly last long before his rage and temper strikes.
But my childhood wasn't all tragic, I had a roof over my head, I was well fed, and I went to school. I was not deprived of material needs, though whatever was given had to be taken care of and kept neatly. I remember it clearly when my sister and I had lost our watches at school and we were left to search for them at the primary school grounds till dusk.
Adoloscence wasn't easy for us either. Raging rebelious hormones had kept me motivated to leave home,verbal abuse can only take you to a certain tolerance level. Any child in the right mind wouldn't want to be called unimaginable, unspeakable things. But despite all that, nothing had held me back from pouring my love and admiration for him.
Now as I grow older, fear is now replaced with tiredness, dissapointments and calculated blow-ups. But in my head, I thank God, for I would not have become the person that I am now if it was not for him. I wouldnt' have done well in school , I would not have been accepted to a prestigous secondary school and graduated with a first class degree to impress him. I would not have had decent job if it was not for him, and my constant drive to become financially independant especially, to be free of him.
Recent run of events however surprised me. It was unexpected that 2 days ago, after the tiring expected drama and his typical rage attacks, with tears rolling down my cheeks I said to him, " Daddy, I only ask you to give me support, and nothing more." And he kept silent.
That day, truthfully, I couldnt have imagined that the risik had gone as smooth. Upstairs, keeping an open ear, I sobbed as I heard him say to Edd's parents who came, " I trust Adrin as so far she has made good choices in the past and she knows what she wants. All kids are unique and one of a kind, and I only have her and her sister." And then he gave his blessing.
At that moment, I realised that I am, will still be his little girl regardless.

Operation H : The Challenge

Operation H was put on hold yet again. (Yea, excuses, excuses). I've been blaming my gastric attacks for more than a week now and even rude comments (from ignorant good for nothing people) had not succeeded in forcing me to pull myself together back to the gym. Whatever it is, I think I may be sabotaging myself here. And I have no idea why this is happening!

After watching Julie and Julia, I realised that I need to be constantly and continuously motivated to stay on track There is no other way, except to record my daily food intakes and exercises to keep focussed.

So here's my new MO:

1. Starting a real-time online loose weight journal (food, exercises and positive thoughts)

2. Gym after work everyday- consider serious personal trainer

3. DVD workouts at home every morning before work

3. Corsett to shape it up!

4. Look into possible diet regime (I'm thinking Herbalife, but doing a little bit more research)

5. Cut down on snacks (Chocs, ice cream- it's time to get serious)

Operation H is back in business, people! Yeaha!

The "Carrie" Inspiration

And what do I love most about Sex and the City? Was it Carrie Bradshaw's bold choice in outfits, heels and accessories? I definitely have to say, it is more than that. Truthfully, I envy her spirit in being true to herself. She admits her doubts, her flaws and picks herself up after each and every breakup she had with guys who turned out to be losers.

Fun and quirky, Carrie has never failed to crack me up with her witty jokes. Apart from what her Russian used to call her (the comic), she values her friends and embraces life in the most colourful way. She took risks in love.

And that is where an idea hit me. The Carrie Inspiration!

So what the heck is it? It's basically an idea to have an ensemble or selection of satc-inspired risik, engagement and bridal wear for the upcoming big day! I have to admit, it's definitely going to be rather tricky since I wear tudung, but I'm determined to make this work!

My 2 favourite characters in the series are Charlotte and Carrie, I'm thinking ...maybe a fun, playful baju kurung modern (with class, of course!) in pink and light green for the engagement and a tasteful pink and white for the wedding.

And the hunt is ON! Wish me luck!