Mr. & Mrs.

It has been forever since I last posted anything here. Stress at work, not to mention the never ending dramas of the wedding preparation had left me numb mostly throughout the end of 2010. I couldn't have imagined how taxing it was to prepare for a one night event. It has been more than 2 months since we've become Mr & Mrs, and so I realised that it is a must for me to record the things that I treasure most about the one in a lifetime experience.

The Top 5 Things That I Loved About My Wedding

1. The Groom
Oh, how could I not love him? He was with me every step of the way, giving support and encouragement, even when I went all crazy, emotional and unstable. Even when I was on bridezilla mode, (always angry as back then, everything planned seemed impossible). I'm so glad now that he gets to see the real, rationale and relaxed me :)Love you comel.

2. The White, Yellow & Turqoise Green Theme
Not the theme colour that I had planned right? Trust me, this was definitely one of the biggest drama. Somehow mom & dad decided to buy turqoise coloured fabric for the family to wear. And that didnt go with the original theme that I had in mind. The last minute colour change did work to an advantage. A classic white look and streaks of turqoise green went perfectly with the hall decoration. The scallops on the ceiling? That, I love!

3. The Guests of Honour
Never did I imagine that Tuanku Ampuan Negeri Sembilan (BOTH of THEM, mind you) would be attending the solemnization ceremony and the reception. Protocol much? Heck, it was. But certainly made the whole escapade worth it. Who could resist wedding gifts from the palace?

4. The Wedding Dais
Going to the BrideBlogger Gathering was perhaps the smartest thing we did. That was where we discovered RassDeco. Their work was breathtaking and their flower arrangement was gorgeous, without doubt. Their twinkling light arch was definitely a hit among the guests who attended.

5. The Wedding Dress
Ah, the dress. The tiered gown, the flowing veil, the intricate beads. Never in my life had I felt more regal! It was a heavy dress, and it was impossible for me to move freely in it but was it was so gorgeous I didnt want to take it off!I got to wear the dress of my dreams that night. A girl couldnt ask for anything more.

So thank you, hubby. For I would not have had a magical, wonderful wedding if it wasnt for you, sayang.

Truth and Tears

People can definitely surprise you. Those you have known most of your lives, may not be as what they claimed. Lies, secrets and skeletons in the closet? Take my advice and be prepared to face some cold, hard truth.

a) Older men who cheat on their wives with younger women disgusts me.

b) I do not mix well with people with obsessive compulsive behaviour.

c) Taking credit of the effort of another, and later not acknowleding them is a sin. Blaming another person for a fault which is yours, is worse.

Me a whiner? It got me to think. Is it all that bad? Am I the one attracting these negative elements in my life? Should I be happy, accepting all that has been thrown at me? Should I be thankful that, at least, I'm well, alive and breathing, at least with a job, a place to stay and having a shoulder to cry on?

I am trying very hard to change (a) (b) and (c) to positive thoughts. There must at least be some silver linings to be found.

The Day I Got Engaged

It's official! Yes, people, I am now engaged to mr fiance m adli m hassan ;)wink. (ALHAMDULILLAH!)It was a beautiful ceremony indeed, and I was soo lucky to have fantastic family and friends who were there to help. Love you guys (Muahss*)I even had 3 photographer frens taking pics! How great is that?

Here are some of the pics that I love. I must tell you they're my fav so far- I find these fabulously artsy!











Well I've been getting a lot of compliments about my hantaran. (I luuurve my chanel cake)and edd even did his pink hantaran himself, with the help of his mum, of course :P though the whole event was simple, it was a happy one, couldnt even stop myself from grinning till now.







With that done, I guess there's no harm to finally be on full bridezilla mode :P

Daddy's Little Girl?

I couldn't recall a time when I was younger when life wasn't revolved around fear. Dad was angry all the time, and though there were happy times at home, even at the earliest age of 5 I knew any form happiness couldn't possibly last long before his rage and temper strikes.
But my childhood wasn't all tragic, I had a roof over my head, I was well fed, and I went to school. I was not deprived of material needs, though whatever was given had to be taken care of and kept neatly. I remember it clearly when my sister and I had lost our watches at school and we were left to search for them at the primary school grounds till dusk.
Adoloscence wasn't easy for us either. Raging rebelious hormones had kept me motivated to leave home,verbal abuse can only take you to a certain tolerance level. Any child in the right mind wouldn't want to be called unimaginable, unspeakable things. But despite all that, nothing had held me back from pouring my love and admiration for him.
Now as I grow older, fear is now replaced with tiredness, dissapointments and calculated blow-ups. But in my head, I thank God, for I would not have become the person that I am now if it was not for him. I wouldnt' have done well in school , I would not have been accepted to a prestigous secondary school and graduated with a first class degree to impress him. I would not have had decent job if it was not for him, and my constant drive to become financially independant especially, to be free of him.
Recent run of events however surprised me. It was unexpected that 2 days ago, after the tiring expected drama and his typical rage attacks, with tears rolling down my cheeks I said to him, " Daddy, I only ask you to give me support, and nothing more." And he kept silent.
That day, truthfully, I couldnt have imagined that the risik had gone as smooth. Upstairs, keeping an open ear, I sobbed as I heard him say to Edd's parents who came, " I trust Adrin as so far she has made good choices in the past and she knows what she wants. All kids are unique and one of a kind, and I only have her and her sister." And then he gave his blessing.
At that moment, I realised that I am, will still be his little girl regardless.